“Funds have been deposited to your account. A special deposit was also made in your name with explicit instructions to begin production immediately.”
The Phantom came through. He actually came through. Oh friends, when I received the news, I could hardly contain myself. My heart was all aflutter, my heart palpitating. Oh friends, I set to work immediately. My bosses at the playhouse were more than ecstatic. The Phantom’s capital, it seems, has proved quite the windfall for them as well. We’ve been working ’round the clock since last I wrote.
The following may be somewhat difficult to follow, but please bear with me. Staging this play has been a harrowing experience, but immensely satisfying. It’s difficult to explain, a kind of brutal, choking sensation, of seeing my word, MY WORDS, being spoken aloud, by beautiful voices emanating from beautiful people.
Oh, it’s quite unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before. They say that musicians often feel a sort of connection to their work more intimate than any other. It supersedes children, lovers, and strikes at the very heart of being. I’m no musician (though I might pick up an instrument in the future), but I feel that now that I might have an understanding of that feeling. Maybe this is the feeling an artist has of their creation, or at least, the feeling an artist should have.
I feel proud in my work, and of myself for actually seeing it done. That’s not something I can say too often, at least not out loud. Sometimes I feel this is all a delicate dream, one that I will wake from at any moment, and all I have will be lost. It’s a terrible feeling, this sense of dread, and I can’t help but feel it lingering over me like some grim spectre, or perhaps a revenant.
Either way, it’s been a whirlwind of emotions for me. The hours have been long and my nights have been sleepless, and more than once I almost lost control over myself. That was the hardest part, controlling myself. It’s odd for people to be ignoring me one day, then obeying my orders and stage directions the next. What an interesting sensation, this power is. I think I like it. Either way, my next post should concern the actual staging.
Smiley Face =) (Sandy taught me that one)